2 months left

2 months left till the very last holidays before college . Its been a fast year . Sekejap je dah bulan 3 . Time flies . Well , SPM results are coming out in 4 days time . :O Had a dream about it last night . Well am I really ready to face the reality ?

YA ALLAH . I’ve tried my very best . How hard I’ve studied days and nights . Alhamdulillah i wasn’t in a VERY stressed mode as I was close to you . I was doing well in each papers . Exiting the examination hall every single day with atleast a smile on my face and with the heart saying Alhamdulillah thanking you oh Allah . Well , not for my last paper of EST . Essay on cancer . How bad could it be . The whole time had the bad memories of papa’s suffering cancer . But Alhamdulillah , i completed it although i wasted 10 minutes staring at the word CANCER with teary eyes . But Alhamdulillah, You helped me to stay strong and finished the paper . Although i’m not quite sure how i did on that paper but I accept whatever I get because You know what is best for me .

Ya Allah , reward me and all my friends with great achievements for our SPM results . May the SPM slip make our parents and teachers and relatives and friends (that is a lot of ‘and’, sorry) proud and happy . Only for You we pray and ask for help . Please give me and my friends a strong heart and faith to accept any possibilities we might see or get on the slip , InsyaAllah . May the first word we say from our hearts and mouths is Alhamdulillah . I pray for myself and all my friends to achieve what You think is the best for us .

Amin Ya Rabbal ‘Alamin .

10 February 2009

the picture above . i miss it . <333

okayy . where do we start ? right , as the title above . It was 2 years back , when i knew i was left here . I was crying so so so hard on this date and also this month . It was the date my soulmate went for boarding school . It’s not that i don’t want him to go . But knowing that i dont have his presence anymore , it was devastating . I gave him a letter which i told him this kind of thing only comes knocking on your door once in your entire life . So there’s no harm for you to give it a try . For your better future . When you told me you have decided to go , i closed my eyes and smile , pray to Allah that this decision will be the best for you and whatever your choice is i will still stand by you and wait for you to finish and come home . I admit , after that particular date , i had a few rough weeks with tears and swollen eye bags .

That was 2 years ago , when you told me you got accepted by Mara to enter their MRSM . I gave you my faith and you finally managed to go through it and stay till the end . It’s all over now , all those are just left for memories . You are now almost 18 and one proud guy . You’re coping so well with life and college . I know you will . Because i believe in you and understand that you actually can .

Lots of love ,

AlyaH .

CNY break

okayy , so last week was the Chinese New Year . Went Pyramid on the day itself . watched The Green Hornet . :) It’s a fun movie . If you want to watch it in 3D , i would say maybe it’s worth your money . :)

Okay so , i realize a lot of things by having 9 days of CNY break . Well of course on the first few days , many shops are closed and the highways are very empty . I think i could lay down on the road in the middle of the night . So as I say , I realize many things . Most business shops are run by the chinese . Where have the Malays and Indians be ? Come on .

The fruit shop is run by chinese and it is closed . Also the florist shop . What if someone is sick and you don’t have anything to bring while visiting ?

The bakeries all around are mostly chinese . Where do you get nice breads or pastries if someone wants to drop by your house and have a chat ? What would you serve them ? Or even if it’s your friends birthday , where do u get the cake ?

The camera shop . What if you have an important job interview the next day and there are no shops available to develop your photo or snap your passport photo ?

The pet store . If your cat’s food are almost finished and the store is closed . What are you suppose to feed you cat or pet ? Let them starve and die ?

The fish market . Or the tofu seller . What if you have important guests coming to your house all the way from your kampung or overseas ? Especially your mother-in-law which only prefer fresh fish instead of the ones in the supermarket . What are you going to serve ? Biscuits ?

So yes , that is what i discovered . So to Malays and Indians out there . Please please please think about this . It is important in our daily life . If only i had the money to open a store . I will .

- Alya H .

An Inspiration

Alhamdulillah, I finally found an aim or a purpose . Ever since I finished SPM , everything has been a blur to me . At least in high school , the aim is to do well in SPM . It will be a rough and rocky journey , but I hope I’ll be able to make it .

Praying for me and also praying for you , AFIQ . <3

Amin

A couple words of wisdom .

I don’t exactly know how am i going to put this down in words , its beyond anything than you could ever imagine , i don’t even know how it feels like really . I used to say i don’t want to run away . But i would run the opposite way , so that i’ll get hit and be in coma plus lost my memory or something . But when you heard i said that , you got so angry and told me to watch my mouth .   

We have been through so much arguments, that sometimes i feel like i can’t do it anymore . Nevertheless , i can never get enough of you . There’s so much mistakes that both of us have made throughout this relationship but i will never withdraw myself .  I haven’t exactly shown how much you mean to me ever since it happened , so before it’s too late , i want you to know that i loved you like i never did before . And i still am .  I still care for you regardless what had happened .

I got an advice from my neighbour’s friend who has a PhD in knowing how to give advise . She said , in life we have to think about others first . But at times when people are making you cry , think about yourself . If they’re not making you happy , they’re not real people that you should keep . Forget it and move on . I <3 you , Dr.Fauzy

All this while I always cared what people said about me and you . I just kept quiet but I wasn’t comfortable with it . But now, I don’t give a damn . I know that I’m happy loving you .

All the time i knew that you loved me
Because you were always there
Could i be that mistaken
Believing that you really care

Love , Alya H